Dunno why I feel so empty.. feel like myself being coated with sins. No no no, i haven't murder anyone yet, didn't rob the bank either.. it's juz that I feel bad for not doing things that i'm supposed to do. I can't stop the temptations either. I kept playing games till my hands all swollen, for spending hours holding the controller. My eyes are sore, too, coz i keep looking at the screen =.= I invest all my money into gaming and now my room looks like some cybercafe =.= Somemore i've been skipping classes quite often, using the excuse that my lecturer sucks. Well, he's really a big, big sucker. I tried being attentive in his class, too. But no avail. My brain is not the video player that can fast-forward whatever crap he's repeating, or delete whatever lame jokes he attempts to make.. So i find skipping as an easy way out. But i didn't use that time to study either =.= Haiz.. always feel guilty for what i've done but nvr really try to fix it..

Somemore sunday has congre meeting.. again.. i dun feel like going lor.. I love going church but the thought abt staying back 4 all sort of meeting like this make me feel like dying.

Weird... suddently feel so depressed for no reason =.= is it because i've played games too much?? May b i shld off the comp now.. my fingers r protesting again by juz typing this TT___TT