30- 11- 2008  

One last shot before saying sayonara to my handphone's pathetic camera function... yay i bought a new camera 2day, finally XD and spent some more money on the stikfas =.= really went crazy over them =.= hopefully i can keep my hobby long...

Another powerful sermon 2day and i have the feeling that i'm much more stronger now, that i can not only do things but also be more calm when disaster strikes (not sure abt this but hopefully it won't happen 4 me 2 test =.= )

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Mom updated her blog 2day... dunno wad happen btw them again... why she always wrote things so depressing like that... God, I just pray that there's nothing wrong between my parents :( i dun wanna see them argue or any cold war happen anymore... i'm just too tired to deal with all that =.=

29- 11- 2008  

Sry Lord, sry dad& mom... u all give me so much and wad i did was letting u all down... i nvr tried 2 do my best our bother 2 put any effort eventhough u provided me the best environment and tried 2 fulfil all my demands... i'm sorry i'll try harder next time...

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Well actually my exam wasn't that bad, or so, i think... but i felt so down after handing in the paper.. i know i could do so much better if i study... i never expected the exams could be that easy, for all 3 subjects... it's all in my notes, wiz answers some more... looking at the exams questions made me feel anything else but familiarity T___T i could get straight A for all the 3 but in the end wad i produced was just a piece of shit... and now i juz pray for passing all the subjects =.=

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Wondering ard suntec city after exam... and i bought that Nike bag, finally... and now Btip & me having the same bag ^^ bought a few stikfas again... dunno why i'm so into these toys even though i dun know wad 2 do wiz them =.=

Going 2 the IT fair tmr after church... hopefully i can find the right camera for myself...

27- 11- 2008  

Yay, juz finished accounting paper 2day... only hav one more left 2 go ^^ thanx god that i was able 2 do quite well 4 the exam 2day... still hav 2 bullshit in the theory part, though.. but the computation ones were good!! there was a few tricky questions, though... hopefully i'll get it right...

Haven't eaten in school 4 so long.. until 2day.. i ordered kimchi pork, and my stupid earphone went right inside the dish =.= and now my earphones got dual function... can smell kimchi pork while listening 2 music =.= shit... my 50 bucks earphones =.=

Haiz.. hav 2 fighting 4 ADT =.= this subject is killing, man... poor my stupid little brain... dunno whether can still squeeze anything else inside or not =.=

25- 11- 2008  

Wah 2day training was really danm shiok ^^ i'm the only junior there ^^ if only every training also like dat then i dun nid 2 MIA liao :"> noticed that Rchrd sensei got wear chain 2day ^^ hehe the necklace really looks so cute on him ^^ one cute little cross pendant ^^ lol while i'm so small wearing such a big cross... XD lol seeing such a small thing can also make me this happy ^^ this is really a happy season ♪

Thank God for always be here 4 me.. I know u r wiz me everywhere i go, and i can really sense your present... but y u never came 2 my exam hall T_____T the things i studied so hard nvr came out ☠ but it's okay, i know it's 4 my all good, i juz nid 2 put more effort & try 2 concentrate on my study... feel danm lazy recently =.= dunno how ppl can study 4 few hours without any break one... i really admire those library campers... sticking on the chairs 4 so long nvr feel tired or wad... i can also sit 4 few hrs, though.. if the things in front of me is the computer, instead of those freaking school notes...

Haiz... tmr really hav 2 b more serious... only 1 day left 4 the next paper... and my brain is so empty :( arggggggg T____T

24- 11- 2008  

♥ Happy birthday daddy, I love you ♥ !!!!

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phew,,, finished taxation paper 2day... feel like dying... if only i was be more serious wiz my study.. then i could do so much better liao... anway... at least i still have the feeling that i won't fail this one... better be more serious next time =.=

ytd sermon really touched me a lot.. especially when i feel so down recently... i'm still think that i'm a turkey, though.. i know i always do not- so- excellent stuff... but it's so difficult doing think u dun like 2 do =( i've never been so fond of studying :( not that i hate 2 study... but why sitting on the table reading textbooks is so difficult... why concentrating is so difficult T____T

aiya still hav 2 more subjects 2 go... 加油~~~ 加油 =.=

22- 11- 2008  

Got quite sastified wiz myself 2day ^^ hehe, at least i did study for awhile, and made some progress, though not sure whether can pass or not =.=

Still haven't figured out how 2 do TPF calculate questions... well, serve me right... went 2 class also nvr listened =.= anyway, tmr hav 2 camp inside the mcdonald again, i guess T___T

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Didn't know that Frdy Sensei also got facebook until ytd... so cool ^^ may b i shld create one 4 daddy also ^^

iSuck...  

Spending so much effort juz to realize how lousy I am, that I'm nothing beside being a good loser. I'm suck at everything I do, anytime, everywhere i go, in every aspect of my life...

Yes it's me, always get depressed easily over some small little matters...

How empty my soul needs to be, in order to receive your wisdom, Lord?? Until when then i'll be able 2 see clearly things that i'm supposed to see?

19- 11- 2008  

Yay, let's say hello 2 our newest family member- Koala chan!!! ^^

Thanx god that 2nite was so much fun... the auntie in our Aikido class came back frm Australia & gave me this cute plush koala ^^ i sweated a lot & slammed a lot, too ^^ wish that everyday would also be interesting & fun like this... looking 4ward 2 the aikido seminar tmr also :)

Aiyo I think i'm enjoying life too much leh... nvr study :( tmr is another busy day, too... going 2 the airport 2 send benny off... then rush back Bkt Batok 4 the seminar... reach home also ard 12 already T__T shit... dunno y this time exam dates r so close one, normally one subject per week, now everything is cramped into 1 wk T___T really dunno whether this term i can survive or not... dunno how other ppl study... dunno why my study is alwasy so struggling :( degree only already so difficult... dunno whether can graduate or not, let alone doing master course T___T i feel so scared, really dunno where and wad i'll be next yr...

God... y i was born like this... i wanna be sucessful like other ppl also...i'm also fully aware that knowledge is the only key... well, i do care abt my study... but y my brain seems not 2 be made 4 all these stuffs... i can be so concentrated on enjoying life... can spend whole 2 play one stupid game but can't spare 10 mins 4 my study.. i can't focus at all T__T dunno where 2 start also T___T now i see my own school notes also dun understand wad the hell i was writing abt =.= Doraemon, where r u?! :(

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omg dunno y my face has too many pimples... is there any machine that can painlessly suck all the pimples out of ur face without turn it unto some bloody moon-ish surface???

只要有妳 - 孙楠 & 那英  

谁 能 告 诉 我 , 有 没 有 这 样 的 笔
能 画 出 一 双 双 不 流 泪 的 眼 睛
留 得 住 世 上 一 纵 既 逝 的 光 阴
能 让 所 有 美 丽 从 此 也 不 再 凋 零

如 果 是 这 样 , 我 可 以 安 慰 自 己
在 没 有 你 的 夜 里 , 能 画 出 一 线 光 明
留 得 住 快 乐 , 全 部 都 送 去 给 你
苦 涩 的 味 道 变 得 甜 蜜

从 此 也 不 用 分 开 , 相 爱 的 天 和 地
还 能 在 冬 雨 天 空 月 亮 太 阳 再 相 遇
生 命 中 只 要 有 你 , 什 么 都 变 得 可 以
让 所 有 流 星 随 时 都 相 遇

从 此 在 人 世 上 演 没 有 无 奈 和 分 离
我 不 用 睁 着 眼 睛 看 你 远 走 的 背 影
没 有 变 幻 的 青 春 , 没 有 失 落 的 爱 情
所 有 承 诺 永 恒 得 像 星 星

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少年包青天's Ending soundtrack... I was looking for 邓超 & 纪敏佳 version, actually... and now I'm so addicted 2 the series =.=

17- 11- 2008  

Being back S'pore again... sad... no more holiday, no more family outing, no more 少年包青天 arrrgg... danm u those video shops, dun let me buy the series :( nvr bother 2 restock then said bcoz the drama is too lousy to keep.. waleowww >"<

Exams' coming soon but i'm still happily planning 2 go out... plan until my schedule book got no space :( but Bny will b flying off for 2 mths, so hav 2 spend more time wiz her, hehe.
Went out wiz Bny & her Indonesian friends tonite.. Orchard Rd is always so nice during xmas time....

Walao I can not stand my hp already =.= the xmas tree looks so nice now become like shit T___T taking picture using this lame hp juz make me so wanna buy a new camera...

God i juz pray that under the xmas there's a camera for me :P but actually i would prefer my exams wiz flying colours, lol. May b i shld camp @ some coffee shop tmr... really can't study in this environment... food lying everywhere... new dramas on the shelf.... laptop full of GAMES!!! omg T____T dunno why my life is always full of exams and those stressing situations T____T why last few days b4 exams r so stressful ???!! now i really wish Doraemon would show up somewhere in my drawer =.=

14- 11- 2008  

No internet in my room at the moment… but that won’t stop me frm blogging ^^ well, I guess I’ll juz hav 2 type on MSword 1st… man, I really hav a mood 2 write 2day…

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Went 2 the beach wiz my parents today.. thanx god we had a fun and safe trip, despite the fact that my dad didn’t seems like he was enjoying it… daddy said he felt empty… wth was that? U felt in love wiz that woman already ah? Like hell I would allow that…

During the trip I came 2 daddy and juz bluntly poured out everything that I’ve bugged me recently.. abt how that woman, how he behaved recently… I think I hurt him a lot :( oh god…y am I always so straight forward… disrespected say things that I’m not supposed 2 say, some more at the wrong time… it’s not really a bad thing, though… we argued for quite long, and I juz realized how knowledgeable he is… daddy, I’m so sorry, I won’t talk like that 2 u any more :( 爸爸啊,我知道这样说真没礼貌…可是我只要一心一意保卫我们家庭,对不起你 :(

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The trip was damn short coz I’m addicted 2 some Chinese drama so called 少年包青天 III …. Hav 2 rush back quickly for the drama... Aired daily at 8pm… 45 episodes… something really can’t miss since the day I knew it… so now my precious supposed-to-be shopping & outing time kana devoted 2 the drama :( wish that I could buy the whole set outside… heard they got sell in poh kim or ts also.. but it’s bloody expensive some more I dun really like Chinese audio wiz English subs.. Vietnamese dubbing is must more nicer :-P

Juz received some email frm my auditing lecturer, too… I like him a lot ^^ so cute and yet so strict :( hopefully I can pass auditing… and all other subjects… wiz flying colors is some miracle things that a mere lazy idiot like me dare not 2 dream of :( but I daydreamed abt that a lot, though XD

Well, everything I need 2 do is putting all effort 2 fight… and pray hard that miracle may happen :-P

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「Sims 2 snapshot caption: juz try 2 show your ass up again, and i'll punch u until your mother can't recognize, u expert homebreaker and your lovely annoying gang!!!」

10- 11- 2008  

Haven't blogged for so long... since i hav nothing 2 talk abt anyway... and I’ve been enjoying my holiday wiz my parents peacefully… until that woman shown up... what can i do now? directly fight with her? or beg her 2 leave my dad alone? wad can i do 2 my dad? i guesss he has some feeling for her 2..is it the reason why he’s never determined enough 2 tell her 2 get lost???

My mom became so stressed recently… she kept telling everybody abt that the weird guy showing up in the office this morning tried 2 murder her or something.. God my family seems 2 be shaken everytime her name is said… just what the hell is going on??? Daddy, i luv u and our family so much, pls dun hurt mummy :-(

Lord, please bless and protect my family.. i feel that things hav gone beyong my ability already... please use me whenever you feel necessary, lord… I can’t just let a mere woman destroy our family like this…

@ Changi airport...  


blogging while waiting 4 boarding...thanx god that the check-in guy was quite easy... still let me go even though my luggage was a little bit too overweighted... The internet here's so fast, man... At least better then my internet at home =.= drinking yogurt too much now i feel like throwing up T_T

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Going 2 the plane soon... God, i pray that my stomach won't turn funny... If something is gonna happen, let it be after i reach home T_T

... Haiz, time passed so fast, here i am on the plane again, going 2 see my family again... Hopefully i'm able 2 enjoy my holiday there without any disturbance frm my annoying relatives =.= lord, pls bless me wiz my study, too... I pray that i can study& prepare well 4 my exams while staying home... I pray that my dad can recover soon also... I'm so worried abt him now T_T

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Hehe it's so cool blogging via hand phone ^^ i hav 2 stop, though... Or else the plan will leave without me =.=

01- 10- 2008  

Yay it's my love for milk tea again... feel like i'm help those companies advertising 4 free =.=

2day is also a normal day, as usual... i still feeling like blogging, though... went ard suntec 2day and i got me some new toys ^^ lol.. i felt like 8 yrs old... yes, i luv toys that can help me create weird photos... And i juz want a new camera so much :( like Sony T700 or something... awwww... daddy sure gets pissed again if i go & ask him for one :(

...monday fly already now still can sit here typing nonsense stuffs.. i juz find myself really unbelievably slack XD

May b i'll juz stop typing and do something wiz the keyboard... seems that something got stuck between the "g" and "h" buttons.... now i have difficulty typing the word "HANG" lol...