Haven't written anything 4 so long. May b it's bcoz my life has not much thing to talk abt... let's see.. wad happened till now... i had no school last week so basically it was just all abt lazing ard the house playing games, watch dramas, music.. then aikido, then slammed and over- slammed, then sugar high (yea, it's freakin' high. I got all hyper for whole night and everybody thought i was taking drug =.=), then went 4 movies, then church, then cell, then go back to school again （・＿・）hmmm.. didn't sound that boring, heh... And anyway, as far as my resolutions r concerned, I think i'm still following, not dropping but in a snail- speed progress. So far i've been able 2 memorize 2 verses as required by Wling and did a little bit of study. Even though it seems juz a tiny bit, but for someone as slack as me, it's a huge different compare to last year, as in the amount of time I've spent for studying on average. Last yr I spent approximately 10 mins daily on studying... and this year so far it's like 12 mins everyday!!! wow it's like my output increases by 20%, LOL.. still waaaay too far from a normal decent student, though =.=

Haiz...recently I've been overwhelmed by these stuffs.. money- involved stuffs... I had to come up with $2100 within 2 days, and my perfect solutions were withdrawing frm every sources that I could, including daddy's cards (o￣へ￣)o I hate myself for deciding things barely on a whim. It's like the word "thinking twice" never existed. I spent huge amounts of money which I've never earned for something that I'm unsure whether it'll bring any benefit in return or not. And wad I can do next is praying hard that my dad won't be upset wiz me. My mom will freak out, for sure, but I dun care, haha

Going 4 training again 2nite. Actually I only prefer tuesday class.. and deep inside I only like Rchrd Sensei.. it's that he's able 2 bring the art to life, with his sense of humour and his care for students, and how he realizes my potential and treates me the way that makes me feel that I'm still tangible and important. I think that fact that he's also a christian makes me like him more.. not that I dun like Frdy sensei or something, but well.. he's a big man, too big to notice someone small like me, let alone knowing who the hell am I or whatever skill or what kyu I am now.. yea I'm the one to be blamed, for being conceited, perhaps. This is life, though. You can't just like everybody and expect every single one on this globe to like you back. Still, I'm glad I hav them as my instructors who teach me not only Aikido but many things in life. And I thank God for giving me opportunites to know my instructors, whoever and whatsoever things I've encountered and come acrossed to. Because I know that you aren't letting me meet people or putting me in different situations for nothing. Thank you for loving me, Lord.