~Happy Birthday Mommy!!!! I love u ^^

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Arg... i feel bad =.= Father, I'm sorry that i've let you down, i've been too complacent thinking that i'm such smart ass can always success in everything i do without spending a single effort. Please forgive me for disappointing you, I'll try harder next time, and won't give up just because of a mere failure. Well, I was sort of knowing for sure that's I was gonna fail, though a part of me still hoping that miracle might happen. I was really calm when I read the slip, almost laugh at it. The only think i feel bad about is i've thrown 100 bucks for nothing... my instinct as a financial student makes me feel frustrated for investing in something that bears no fruit. Haiz.. i can get the Twilight saga book set with that $100 notes T__T

Only the money part was bad, I don't really know what i'll do if I really pass, then only thing I know is, I'll become more conceited, more arrogant than I'm used to be. May be it's the good thing, in order to prune my characteristics and turn me to a better person, a humble one, not a hypocrite one who only pretends to be humble.

I've been doing lots of bad things, recently. I know it's bad, but i can't simply stop it. Hatred's controlled over my mind before i can stop it. For sure being Christlike is the most hardest thing to do, especially when I'm around so many annoying people. Some more that woman is back again. I don't know whether I would loose control and start to hurt my dad again. God, I pray that my dad will be conscious enough to act things that will benefit our one and only family. I need your protection upon my family, God.