hmm.. what a pleasant morning 2day.. i went 4 breakfast wiz dad and had a nice chat wiz him abt how he maganges and makes strategic decisions 4 companies.. yeah my dad is not only a lawyer, but a strategist, yes, daddy is my Zhuge Liang ^^ and my mom is somewhat like... errm.. CaoCao?? ahahaha can not be lah xD but somewhat alike... 2 certain extent...

Only a few more hours.. and my chains will be gone once again, be temporarily free from exams and assignments for 2 wks =.= i still haven't finished my project though, but i'm confidence that i can defeat this monster on time, only that i'll have 2 sacrifice my precious, peaceful sleeping hours :( didn't hav a single decent sleep this week... due to exams and my lack of discipline =.= yeah i can play games for one day straight but sorry, not study...

Yay I'm back 2 S'pore at last. The trip was fun and a bit tiring, since we were basically dying on the plane everyday, from S'pore to Bangkok then to Vientiane then back 2 Thailand and to S'pore again.. I glad that I was able to make new friends, and seems that everybody who was there knew me.. yeah i've become famous instantly, after getting drunk at the party. My 1st time getting so drunk and I had vomitted everything, every where, frm the party, to the toilet, then the car and messed the whole hotel up =.= i'd never felt so embarrassed like that b4, having ppl carried me all the way back and take care of me, and my contact lens.. it was so humiliated =.= i heard frm P.Lng that the photos of me taken frm that night were pure retarded =.= God... i juz wan to hide in some corner and die there... And there was something with my attitude also. It took a 180 degree swing where i totally ignored people, and tried to be really haughty. Arrgg.. i dun know wad's become of me anymore, and now i think i'm having a reputation of being some bitchy, freaking proud princess. Sometimes I can't really control my own behavior, somehow it comes impulsively and i end up doing loads of stupid things.. And my demonstration sucks.. well, i don't feel like blaming ppl, perhaprs it's me who didn't perform well enough and we didn't rehearse at all, as my instrutor has strong faith on putting on spirit and things will just anyhow flow =.=

Aiya,, how ah?? why recently so many bad things keep happening 2 me?? now i'm facing a great chance to reinstalling windows again...and now i'm on the edge of losing all my precious documents.. with tons of files scattering ard, another 20gb of music and all the software installed, seems that i hav to stay one whole night for this =.=

Arrg dunno why i'm so unlucky recently =.= the aikido training yesterday was really good, and i was successfully avoided that morron but was so excited and over-confident when i tried to slam on shihonage.. so the result is my hand got injured badly.. can say it was terribly twisted =.= now i can't move or lift my hand up at all... so at the moment i just pray hard that it's not broken and will be able 2 recover soon. If not things would turn disaster since i'm having my trip to Laos & Thailand next week and my exams r coming soon.. since it's my left hand that got injured and i'm left-handed, it's pretty bad when it comes to daily activities..  i just realise i can still type relatively fast with one hand, thougth. may b use computer too much already, haha 

Arg~~ I'm doomed, man =.= i lost one of my earrings, somewhere in the dojo.. or worse it could be at the foodcourt.. so somebody has probably looted it.. well, that person should be lucky 2day, as my earrings are white gold.. and I'm the one with sappy luck T____T it was my fault, actually.. i was so careless anyhow toss the earrings like that.. argggg~ mom'll get angry 4 sure... But dunno why 2day so suay huh.. got 2 see that shit face while training again, only lucky enought that i managed to not practice with him at all.. but thing wasn't gotten any better juz because of that.. my performance 2day was lousy, too.. it's like self-making foul.. doing countless weird things, saying tons of weird stuffs also...

Now as the encounter weekend's coming 2 an end, i didn't feel regret 4 coming at all, which was complete different frm wad i'm been thinking in the past few days. The feeling of being set free, being loved and protected by the Lord had somehow brought me out of depression and the fear i've been facing recently... And my mind has no longer flooded with all the negative thoughts.. At least at the moment...

Why there are times when I'm so free and have no better thing to do beside wasting time doing nothing yet there are times when I feel myself being tied up with so much work until my brain wanna burst??? Like these recent week, while I'm already stressed my arse up with school stuffs, all sort of stupid problems start to show up.. and why of all time, thoose annoying ppl start to bug me non-stop??? My brain is gonna explored already... it's like adding oil to fire...

There's something abt Crumpler that I couln't stop drooling abt. And today i was again, doing things randomly. Yeah i went 2 Orchard 2 get the danm Crumplet backpack which costs $200 T__T and yeah, high price does go with good quality, which in my opinion, the bag can really last for years. Probably 5 years plus. So that's y i dun feel guilty at all, huh~ But at least I got study at home, today. At least I really sat on the chairs for like 2 hrs, which was miracle, since normally i can only concentrate for 10 to 20 minutes. Man, I'm really productive when I'm stressed and feel guilty. What a sad life. Why can i be juz like my sis, can stick to the stupid chair for hrs and only get her ass of once she completes her homework. If I only I can do the same.. then my life could be much more better already, but might be less colourful at the same time. Like my sister i think her life is really monochrome. At least my life is like 32-bit colour. I wish it could become 256-bit, though. Haha wad a computer freak i am. Nvm~ as i was born this way, hahaha...

Omg 2day's another random day =.= too much randomness to be registered =.= 1st is abt me purposely tried 2 wear shorts, despite the fact that it's obviously against the school's dress code. But i didn't care, i juz wore it thinking if i really kana caught, I would skip the morning class...

I feel so paranoid recently =.= i didn't do anything wrong and i know so well that my house owners are really nice.. but i can't help feeling weird =.= or may be it's becoz i heard Btip's saying her landlady can be so fickle that she's been totally charming one day and acting weird on another day?? i dun even feel like using the kitchen too, and ended up making salad on my study table. So now my room is full of cucumber and tomato smell, let alone the fact that there is mayonnaise on my keyboard, too T_T

Dunno why I feel so empty.. feel like myself being coated with sins. No no no, i haven't murder anyone yet, didn't rob the bank either.. it's juz that I feel bad for not doing things that i'm supposed to do. I can't stop the temptations either. I kept playing games till my hands all swollen, for spending hours holding the controller. My eyes are sore, too, coz i keep looking at the screen =.= I invest all my money into gaming and now my room looks like some cybercafe =.= Somemore i've been skipping classes quite often, using the excuse that my lecturer sucks. Well, he's really a big, big sucker. I tried being attentive in his class, too. But no avail. My brain is not the video player that can fast-forward whatever crap he's repeating, or delete whatever lame jokes he attempts to make.. So i find skipping as an easy way out. But i didn't use that time to study either =.= Haiz.. always feel guilty for what i've done but nvr really try to fix it..

Somemore sunday has congre meeting.. again.. i dun feel like going lor.. I love going church but the thought abt staying back 4 all sort of meeting like this make me feel like dying.

Weird... suddently feel so depressed for no reason =.= is it because i've played games too much?? May b i shld off the comp now.. my fingers r protesting again by juz typing this TT___TT

We went to the beach after my dad's meeting 2 hav seafood for lunch ^^ the food was really fresh and nice. Quite expensive, though. But no choice lor.. this time of the year, everywhere also wanna increase the price. After feeding ourself, my parents stopped at the few places 2 take pictures.. Then on the way back my dad asked the driver (who is actually one of my distant uncle) to teach me how 2 drive. It was much bette than last time.. at least the 2 front wheels nvr came up like the time my dad taught me. The car last time we used was a SUV with manual gear while this car is still kinda new with automatic gear. I guess that explains why i can control it easily, despite the fact that my mom kept yelling coz she said she scared that I might run over her or knock down the coffe shop where they were sitting nearby =.=  

I'm back frm Thailand, finally. The trip was good but it kept me too busy and I couldn't hav time 2 buy any. At all. I felt a bit tut since my original purpose was to flying there & shop 'till the plane drop T__T well, it's not so bad as I still hav chances 2 go there again... anyway, I may go travel again wiz dad& mom onto the moutain ^^ these last few yrs my mom has become so addicted 2 travel and she couldn't stop planning where she wanna go during the holidays, which is somehow benefit me xD Yeah, I love traveling, too. But don't hav money as much as her, lol

It's 1st day of Chinese new year today and in my brain thing's a bit messy. I might need 2 take some time defragmenting the whole system in order 2 digest what happened =.= anyway, i'm still alive and God, I thank you for everything you've done to me. Thank you for being almighty and unexpected. I was amazed by you again.  And I luv my new necklace xD 先生、ありがとうな～　今日は楽しいかった（≧w ≦）ノ　でもいつまた会えるかも知れないね　(￣＾￣°)