Why there are times when I'm so free and have no better thing to do beside wasting time doing nothing yet there are times when I feel myself being tied up with so much work until my brain wanna burst??? Like these recent week, while I'm already stressed my arse up with school stuffs, all sort of stupid problems start to show up.. and why of all time, thoose annoying ppl start to bug me non-stop??? My brain is gonna explored already... it's like adding oil to fire...

There's something abt Crumpler that I couln't stop drooling abt. And today i was again, doing things randomly. Yeah i went 2 Orchard 2 get the danm Crumplet backpack which costs $200 T__T and yeah, high price does go with good quality, which in my opinion, the bag can really last for years. Probably 5 years plus. So that's y i dun feel guilty at all, huh~ But at least I got study at home, today. At least I really sat on the chairs for like 2 hrs, which was miracle, since normally i can only concentrate for 10 to 20 minutes. Man, I'm really productive when I'm stressed and feel guilty. What a sad life. Why can i be juz like my sis, can stick to the stupid chair for hrs and only get her ass of once she completes her homework. If I only I can do the same.. then my life could be much more better already, but might be less colourful at the same time. Like my sister i think her life is really monochrome. At least my life is like 32-bit colour. I wish it could become 256-bit, though. Haha wad a computer freak i am. Nvm~ as i was born this way, hahaha...

Omg 2day's another random day =.= too much randomness to be registered =.= 1st is abt me purposely tried 2 wear shorts, despite the fact that it's obviously against the school's dress code. But i didn't care, i juz wore it thinking if i really kana caught, I would skip the morning class...

I feel so paranoid recently =.= i didn't do anything wrong and i know so well that my house owners are really nice.. but i can't help feeling weird =.= or may be it's becoz i heard Btip's saying her landlady can be so fickle that she's been totally charming one day and acting weird on another day?? i dun even feel like using the kitchen too, and ended up making salad on my study table. So now my room is full of cucumber and tomato smell, let alone the fact that there is mayonnaise on my keyboard, too T_T

Dunno why I feel so empty.. feel like myself being coated with sins. No no no, i haven't murder anyone yet, didn't rob the bank either.. it's juz that I feel bad for not doing things that i'm supposed to do. I can't stop the temptations either. I kept playing games till my hands all swollen, for spending hours holding the controller. My eyes are sore, too, coz i keep looking at the screen =.= I invest all my money into gaming and now my room looks like some cybercafe =.= Somemore i've been skipping classes quite often, using the excuse that my lecturer sucks. Well, he's really a big, big sucker. I tried being attentive in his class, too. But no avail. My brain is not the video player that can fast-forward whatever crap he's repeating, or delete whatever lame jokes he attempts to make.. So i find skipping as an easy way out. But i didn't use that time to study either =.= Haiz.. always feel guilty for what i've done but nvr really try to fix it..

Somemore sunday has congre meeting.. again.. i dun feel like going lor.. I love going church but the thought abt staying back 4 all sort of meeting like this make me feel like dying.

Weird... suddently feel so depressed for no reason =.= is it because i've played games too much?? May b i shld off the comp now.. my fingers r protesting again by juz typing this TT___TT

We went to the beach after my dad's meeting 2 hav seafood for lunch ^^ the food was really fresh and nice. Quite expensive, though. But no choice lor.. this time of the year, everywhere also wanna increase the price. After feeding ourself, my parents stopped at the few places 2 take pictures.. Then on the way back my dad asked the driver (who is actually one of my distant uncle) to teach me how 2 drive. It was much bette than last time.. at least the 2 front wheels nvr came up like the time my dad taught me. The car last time we used was a SUV with manual gear while this car is still kinda new with automatic gear. I guess that explains why i can control it easily, despite the fact that my mom kept yelling coz she said she scared that I might run over her or knock down the coffe shop where they were sitting nearby =.=  

I'm back frm Thailand, finally. The trip was good but it kept me too busy and I couldn't hav time 2 buy any. At all. I felt a bit tut since my original purpose was to flying there & shop 'till the plane drop T__T well, it's not so bad as I still hav chances 2 go there again... anyway, I may go travel again wiz dad& mom onto the moutain ^^ these last few yrs my mom has become so addicted 2 travel and she couldn't stop planning where she wanna go during the holidays, which is somehow benefit me xD Yeah, I love traveling, too. But don't hav money as much as her, lol